I Would Rather Be Eating Chocolate

I have been in a bit of a flux with working out and moving my body in ways that will help me lose some of this gawd-awful weight I have put on over the last 13-14 years.  I know what to do, but 95% of the time I don't do it.    I have run half marathons 6 times and I am completely out of that mindset.  I would wake up early, push and focus on the end goal.   I fell off the wagon and can't seem to catch up mentally or physically with my weight or my lack of drive and direction.   I got out of my funk a wee bit and I did a walk/run treadmill session for the first time in ages.  It's funny how your mind reacts to your body's response.  I dreaded the idea of it, but I pushed through.  I felt like Superman!  It was a wonderful feeling.  The endorphins flowed and as little that I did run, I felt so proud of myself.    I am going to take this journey 1 step at a time. 1 meal at a time.  1 good day followed by another.  Nothing more.  Nothing less.   Until next time,  ~Tammy 

My Friday morning WI with WW and I'm down 2.4lbs as you can see from my graphic.   I have tried to find balance in my eating, work outs and life.  Eat the cake and hit the treadmill.   Enjoy the little moments in life that are focused around food and people and still find the commitment to myself and my goal of losing weight and being healthy.   Until next time,  ~Tammy 💕

I failed to take a picture of my outfit today.  It was a cute one, too.  I could have done a better job of eating today, but things have a way of getting away from me from time to time, (not pictured - 1/2 avocado). I could probably do without the 3 cups, but they are pretty awesome cups!   Any good and healthy options for my eating entertainment is greatly appreciated.  ~Tammy 💕

I wore this to work today paired with a denim jacket.  Going out the door, I thought I looked pretty decent.  I didn’t take this picture until after work.  What I see in this picture is gut wrenching.  My goodness, how did I ever think I was looked decent.  I know some outfits hide and disguise things better than others, but this is just ridiculous!  I am extremely hard on myself and that is never going to change.  What I have done to myself and allowed myself to become is not acceptable.  This outfit, rather than the one posted prior to this should be the motivational outfit.  If I think I am okay to stay in the place physically, mentally and emotionally, let me tell you, a switch has been flipped.   I don't know what my game plan is at the moment.  I will figure it out with grace and determination to change.  I have something stack against me - age and a slowed metabolism, not to mention a lazy way of life.  Big surprise that I am saddened by my current state of my body.    Now i

Motivational Outfit  I have been in a very poor physical and mental place for the last 5 years, maybe even longer. My mental state with all other things is good, but the body image and issues are causing me such a level of anxiety and I'm done with it. To post this picture.... it is stepping so far out of my comfort zone. I'm not comfortable in my skin, so being comfortable in these pictures and posting such vulnerability is definitely not going to make me any more comfortable. I'm at the point of, 'suck it up buttercup!' I am going to take a picture at the beginning of every month to see how I'm progressing in getting it to this outfit. I love it. It was cheap ($9.00), so it's not a lot of money on the line. It's my determination, dedication and focus on achieving what I have let get away from me. More on that story and saga in future posts. Stay tuned for updates and challenges. ~Tammy